Summary:“Find Me.” These are the words written on Tessa Waye’s diary. The diary that ends up with Wick Tate. But Tessa’s just been found...dead.
Wick has the right computer-hacking skills for the job, but little interest in this perverse game of hide-and-seek. Until her sister Lily is the next target.
Wick’s going to find this killer no matter what. Because it just got personal.
He said if I told anyone, he’d kill me. I believe him.Page 49 of Tessa Waye’s diary
I’ve wanted to read Romily Bernard’s debut novel – Find Me – ever since I first heard about it back in early September. And now I’ve finally gotten my hands on a copy and finished reading it, I can’t honestly say that it was worth the wait.
“Find Me.” These are the words written on the cover of Tessa Waye’s diary. The diary that ends up on Wick Tate’s doorstep.
The next day it’s revealed that Tessa has committed suicide. At first, Wick doesn’t think much of it. She believes it to be a foolish prank. But, after using her incredible hacking abilities, she realizes it isn’t a prank. It’s real. And if she doesn’t act soon, then her sister Lily will be the next victim…
It’s a trick I’ve learned over the years. I stay perfect on the outside so that no one knows I’m rotten underneath.Page 28 of Tessa Wayne’s diary
I loved that Romily decided to include a snippet of Tessa’s diary at the end of each chapter. It allows you to really connect with Tessa on a more powerful level – despite the fact that, by the beginning of the story, she’s already dead. The diary snippets are so sad, but they’re also really powerful at the same time. Through her diary, we can see Tessa falling apart – one piece at a time – and it’s absolutely heartbreaking. And the sad thing is that Tessa hid her emotions so well that no one – not even her best friend – could even tell something was bothering her. Until it was too late.
He never stares at me, never does anything improper, when we’re around other people. He’s too careful. Looking at us, no one would even guess. Funny, how… everyone still stares at me.
That’s why I had to learn to disappear.
Right in front of their eyes, I vanished.Page 82 of Tessa Waye’s diary
Our protagonist Wicket is pretty kick-butt. She’s seen how harsh the world can be – having a crazy psychopath for a father and a mother who committed suicide three years prior to the events in this story. Yet, through her horrible experiences, Wicket keeps a remarkably positive attitude despite everything she’s been through.
The supporting characters weren’t quite up to my expectations though. I felt that there was quite a bit of unlocked potential inside characters such as Wicket’s dad, Lily, Todd and that we weren’t really able to get the full scoop on them.
I felt that the romance between Wicket and Graff, however, wasn’t as strong as it could have been and really lacked the spark it was looking for. Not only that, but it seemed quite pointless to me as it didn’t add much to the story plotwise nor was it especially entertaining. I would have preferred if it was eliminated entirely, but alas, as this is a young adult novel, that will probably never happen.
My biggest complaint, however, was the mystery – which was so much easier to crack then I hoped it would have been. I found out who the culprit was by around page fifty, and from then on, I tried to convince myself that it wasn’t him – that it would have been too obvious. But, when the final reveal came, it did, indeed turn out to be the person I suspected.
And while I’m sitting there, thinking:
I feel guilty giving this a two-star rating, but two star ratings mean “it was okay,” and that is precisely how I felt about Find Me. If you’re looking for a light thriller or are trying to get into the genre, this is definitely one to try. If you’re an experienced reader in the mystery / thriller department, this probably isn’t the way to go. (I’d recommend Dangerous Girls or The Westing Game instead).
Everyone thinks I’m a good girl. If they only knew.Page 11 of Tessa Waye’s diary